The Best Feeling

1. I feel just fine psychologically and socially. Of course, you can always be more outgoing, but I feel just fine. I can meet new people and if I don't, I feel just fine if I don't. I have plenty of great friends and I have met many others that have turned into friends. I feel most alive in my hometown or surrounding towns. I also feel most alive when I'm with my friends and people I know. Like I said, can get to know people and I don't have a problem with that, but of course I feel a lot more comfortable with my close friends in my hometown.

2. I would have to say I feel the least energy in a place that I don't want to be or feel uncomfortable. When I am at a place that I don't feel the best at or would just rather not be there, of course I am not going to have tons of energy or feel the best. I would rather be where I feel comfortable and would have the best state of mind.

3. I have already made a change to revitalizing my life. I wasn't happy where I was at in my life with college, so I made a change to move back home, into my own place, and switch colleges. I just wasn't happy with what I was doing and I wanted to be happy. I wanted to feel comfortable where I was at in my young life and know that I could be happy everyday. So when I made the choice to move home, I became a happier person and felt so much better about myself. I just knew I could be happy and not feel like I had to put on a fake smile everyday. For awhile, I was sad and it was hard to feel happy. Now I am!

Waste of Time

Wanting to be someone else is such a waste of time. I have found that out! In the past, there have been a couple of people who I didn't want to be like, I just wanted to feel like I was. For a certain someone, I felt like I had to be like that person in order to feel good about myself. Over time, I figured out that I didn't have to be. I don't want to be either. If that person doesn't like me for me, then that's ok. I will get over it and move on. I don't need to be someone I'm not. I wan't made to be like that person. It would be a waste of my time to try and be like that person and I wouldn't want to be anyways.

Stress

Right now, I am very stressed about school. I am switching schools and just getting everything organized is stressful. I did registar for classes without problems, but getting financial aid together is very stressful. Another thing I am stressed about is fixing a house that I am renting with my brother. The house isn't in good condition, so we have to do a lot. It is an old house so there is wallpaper and old carpet that just needs to go. Not having the time and a lot of money to do these things is hard. Just finding time to do it all is tough. All I can do with my stress is talk about it and just know that in time, it will go away and things will get better. That's what I'm hoping for anyways!

Eating Disorder

Personally, I was shocked to hear about the death on WSC campus. It was so hard to hear it and process it. I didn't know her personally, but I knew of her. Going on to eating disorders, I wish people wouldn't to it. I understand it's a disease that some people just can't change, I wish they would though. Girls mainly need to understand that they are pretty no matter what others say. I'm sure it's what they think of themselves, but I just wish there was someone who could help them. Everybody has something they would like to change, they just need to go about it in a different way.

Building my Relationship

The relationship that I would like to maintain and grow is the one I have with my boyfriend. We have been together for four years and doing great. The one thing that I would like to grow or build up is the communication. We both talk to each other and are pretty good with sharing our feelings, but there are some things that we don't share. For example, when I have a problem with him, I tend to not tell the full extent of the story because I assume the worst. I assume that I will say something wrong and he may get upset or sad and I don't want to do that to him. One thing that he will do is not tell me a problem when it is bothering him. I have to nag him for so long before he will tell me what the problem is. I just want both of us to get past that. I want to be able to tell the whole problem and I want him to be able to tell me the problem from the beginning.

Growing

In terms of growing in the past few weeks, I have grown to understand that I shouldn't live in the past and future. I need to live for today and take what is given on that day. I am such a planner and worry about the smallest things and I have finally learned not to worry so much. I don't mind being a planner, I just don't like to sweat the small stuff. I am starting to annoy myself! I also know that it will annoy the people I love the most and I don't want to do that. I may lose them and that would devistate me. I have just learned to take things day by day and I am starting to feel better about myself. I am also getting closer to God. I have always been a part of God and have gone to church but being in college and not the happiest, I have been able to reach to God. I feel better when I do reach to him and I know that he will always be there for me.

Nebraska Love

You know what inspired me this past weekend? The love that us Nebraskans have for our state and our people. Ecspecially our football team! We are the only team in NCAA history to have 300 consecutive sellouts. That right there just tells you how dedicated we are and how happy we get when our football team represents our state well. I was a the game is gave me chills to know how proud we are of our state. We have great sportsman ship and every other college brags us up. That is the best feeling. That just inspired me to always be proud of where I came from and have no regrets of my state!

Self Concept

I think my self concept does have a lot to do with what people told me about in my younger years. I wouldn't know half of the things that I do today unless my peers wouldn't of taught me a lesson. Right or wrong, I had to be told what to do. I would excel from the right, and learn from the wrong. If nobody told me that in order to make a good living you have to go to college, I may not be here. Of course I would have learned on my own, but I needed encouragement.

I had very good experiences when I was younger that has helped me shape my life now. I live on a farm so when we had a job to do, we got it done and we did it right. That has helped me so much now and with jobs. When I have something to do or a goal to achieve, I will get it done and do it right. I will achieve my goal to the highest potential.

Grow and Change

Yes, there are ways that I think I can grow, I just havn't found them yet. I don't want to change because I am satisfied with the way that my life has and is going. I do believe that I have room to grow though. I have always been independent but I feel that in college, I can grow to be more independent. This is a different experience and so far, it's been rough. I feel like I can grow and overcome the challenges I face. I don't believe I can be perfect and I don't think I would want to be. I need to be able to make mistakes and learn from them.

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